a stubborn desire…
I’m drowning; won’t anyone come rescue me? I’ve swam too far into this hell; won’t someone save me?
Nothing is going right in my world. Everything seems to be falling apart. All the hopes and dreams I’ve had are slowly shattering. And I, I keep swimming further and further into this hell and am being pulled down by the weight of the world on my shoulders.
I feel like I’m dead. A walking zombie. All I want to do is cry, scream and yell at the universe. I want to call upon all those Gods above and fight with them. I want to ask them, why! Why they continue to test me over and over again.
I don’t have the fight left in me. I’m exhausted and I cannot fight no more. I can’t take this constant struggle to make ends meet, to satisfy everyone’s requests and needs. I’m exhausted by constantly being turned down for my desires and wishes. I’m exhausted of begging and pleading for what’s rightfully mine. I’m done. Done. Done. Done!!!!!
This is a cry for help that never comes. This is a plead for the miracle that does not exist. This is me coming too close to doing something too drastic. This is a cry for a change.
Someone, somewhere read this and be that miracle. Anyone!