Keeping Myself Pre-Occupied
Seems my life keeps taking turns. I’ve been cursed with feelings of hopelessness and depression. Most days I am feeling down and cannot find a way to get my mind out of the rut. After work, exhausted as I may be, I still have too much time on my hands to sit around and think.
The hard truth that I’m learning now is that I don’t have any real friends nearby to help share my time. Both my best friends live in different countries and although I can talk or chat with them whenever I want, it’s just not the same as having them here. I could go out and get some new friends, but building those relationships would take forever, plus I wouldn’t know where to look to find new friends.
So, I’ve been Googling on how to occupy myself in the evenings and weekends so my mind doesn’t have the time to wander into the depression I have around me. D isn’t home enough for him to keep me occupied and when he is, he’s normally tired and wants to rest. Plus, somedays I just need to be away from him because he may have contributed to my depressed state. Don’t get me wrong, he’s my best friend, but he’s also my husband and with that later title things do clash between us here and there.
Anyway, since the weather is good most days, I’m going to restart taking my evening walks. Headphones in, phone on silent mode so no one can disturb me and sneakers on.
I’ve also been trying to find some free prenatal classes in Scarborough but they seem to be quite far from where I live. I’ll keep looking. I think it’ll be good for me to get in those classes as I’ll get to meet mom’s to-be and might even find someone with something in common as me besides the bump.
Can any of you suggest other ways for me to occupying my time inexpensively? I’m on a massive saving process so that I can purchase a bunch of things for my angel come September (Babies R Us is having a massive baby fest where hundreds of items will be on sale). So, I don’t want to spend too much money preoccupying myself. But I will indulge a bit if the interest strikes.
Please let me know anything you can think of to help me keep busy and come out of this depression.