5 Year’s Of Wedded Bliss

Five years ago, Dev and I were sitting on the balcony drinking beer after a long days work. It was the perfect night, the perfect moment and the perfect conversation. I don’t know what dawned on me but I turned to him and said, “I want to marry you! Will you marry me?” I completely expected a shocked reaction and an argument over why not. But instead, received the words I didn’t think were on his mind; “I want to marry you, too.” I think I almost died and went to heaven before I came to terms with what he had just said. I told him it had always been my dream to elope with my true love without telling anyone. He said, “then let’s do it.” “Whaaa-t?” I exclaimed back. 

We decided to get married in court the following Wednesday. But the Friday night before that, he got into a car accident, that left him carless but injury-free. It was a horrifying event. He could’ve been paralyzed or killed.

The car accident left me wondering if us getting married was a bad idea. I didn’t speak about it the rest of the week. But that following Friday night as we sat on the balcony again, I look on his faces, that perfect conversation started again and I said, “accident or not, bad omen and all, I still want to marry you, when you’re ready.” He said, “I was ready last week and I’m still ready now. Let’s get our marriage license and get married.”

They say, “what’s meant to be, will be”, and so it has been five years. 
When I look back at the last five years, I see tears, arguments, anger even. But then the laughter, adventures, happiness, crazy, moments overpower all the bad days. I’m bold, outspoken, straightforward, intense and extreme. He’s calm, laid back, easygoing, and relaxed. I guess, that’s why we’re still together and enjoying each other’s company still. We got for dinners, try new restaurants, explore new destinations locally and ride on each other’s strengths. We don’t overlook the others weaknesses or try to change them based on our opinions. But instead, encourage the other to be who we need to be at this very moment and either adjust to the weakness or fight it out. 
It’s been a beautifully adventurous five years and I am blessed to have met him and to have gone with my gut when it told me he was the one. Happy 5 Year Anniversary, Dev. Here’s to another 5, 10, 15, 20, or 50 years of craziness with you! 

Never Any Time


I know I’ve completely decreased the amount of time that I write on my blog. I know that I’ve sort of abandoned all of you but the truth is that I just don’t have time. I don’t have energy. I don’t have mine set to write and constantly am exhausted. I am working with my husband, as you all know and although, I am his business development assistant manager, I also his waitress or I should say his cashier, his supplier, his errand runner, his accountant, his secretary and as his wife, I’m also his personal assistant. So I barely have time for anything and when I do have time; I’m so exhausted and mentally drained that I don’t have the energy to write.I now work nearly 50 to 60 hours a week, whereas before, as a project manager I was working close to 37 to 45; that’s a huge difference. Plus, I am also not counting the times when we are at home and we are putting together the weekly schedule or ordering inventory from our suppliers or running around trying to get one of the parts for one of the machines we use. Those are all on the side jobs that essentially don’t get accounted for towards the hours we work. 

So, that is my excuse, that is why I seem to try to only write at least once a week and sometimes I even miss that and end up writing about only once every two weeks. I’m sorry for that and for anybody who has followed my blog over the past few months or year will know that my blog is truly my sacred place; it is my life but unfortunately right now, it is secondary to the current life I’m living. I’m sorry, I hope you all understand. I hope you realize that the changes I made a couple of months ago with my career, with my life and with my health have all affected me and have brought me to the conclusion that I will still display or portray my life on my blog but sometimes my blog will have to wait. I’m still around and I will try my best to write as much as I can,!even if it’s just a couple of lines every couple of days. So stay tuned and be patient and wish me well and luck with everything I’m doing.

Xoxo ~ Tamana

An App & Reality Check Are Helping Me Reach My Goals


I was home on sick leave for nearly five months. I was dealing with an array of symptoms that eventually led to depression and the depression led to over eating. I knew I had gained weight but when I finally decided to get on the scale and check how much, I was left shocked and horribly depressed. I gained 17 lbs. in five months, sitting at home with minimal exercise. 17 frickin pounds!! I was already over weight to begin with but 17 extra pounds to deal with was not something I was looking forward to.

That was a reality check for me. How did I let myself go this far? Why didn’t I check before and get off my ass and start moving around? How the heck was I going to get rid of this extra weight and get healthy again?

I looked high and low for quick weight loss remedies and diets. But nothing was working. I wasn’t losing any weight and the fad diets were making me feel sluggish and drained; which led to even more depression. 

A friend mentioned downloading a health app and using that to help me lose weight. Really? An app to help me lose weight! How was that going to help? I questioned her recommendation and ended the conversation. 

Later however, I decided to go into the App Store and check out some apps. I’d heard a lot about FitBit, so decided to check it out. I downloaded the Fitbit App to see what all the commotion was about. For those of you who don’t know what Fitbit is, it’s a little bracelet that can track your physical activity and sleep patterns. I didn’t purchase the bracelet because it’s not in my budget to do so. Especially right now, since money is extremely tight. However, I decided to download the app on my iPhone. I constantly have my phone on me, so figure it will track my steps as much as possible. 

The app is easy to use and can be set up to your personal goals. Of course, my goal is to lose weight. So, I’ve indicated that on my app. I’ve also indicated how much weight I would like to lose. So, the app calculates how many calories I should be eating daily and how much water I need to consume to hit my target. It also gives me a date for when I will achieve my weight loss goal if I continue to follow the apps recommendations. My target weight loss date is August 2017. I’m trying to lose 93 lbs. 

At first, the daily calorie count was hard to maintain and I almost never was under or at the recommended calories I should be eating. However, with the help of putting in my daily calories, I come very close each day to not going over the recommended amount. I’ve also increased my water intake to nearly double what the app suggests. The app allows me to search for foods in the calorie chart, so that I can easily find how many calories a food has in it before I consume it. The more I walk, the higher calories I can consume that day. 

I downloaded the app on June 15th. Since then, I have lost 19 lbs. I follow the apps calorie recommendations Monday to Friday and eat as healthy as I can on those days. But allow myself to eat junk food or carbohydrates on the weekends. All in moderation, though. I’ve increase my water intake by 100% from the recommended amount on the app. So, now I’m up to four litres of water a day. I try to get in at least 5000-8000 steps each day and am trying to work my way up to at least 10000 steps daily. My calorie intake has been reduced to 1200 calories a day. 

And I don’t feel bloated, sluggish or crappy any more. My legs don’t hurt as much and I’m sleeping much better. The depression has seemed to fade away significantly because I’ve realized I’m working myself back to a better me and although the results don’t show on my body yet, I feel better as myself again. 
Dev says I look like I’ve lost weight. I don’t see it, though. But the fact that he’s noticed how hard I’ve been working and sees some of the results, makes me feel like I’m on the right track.

Fad diets only worked for a while. But this lifestyle change is showing me that it’s not all that hard to lose weight if you choose the right path and have the determination and the help from a little app!

Long Weekend Shenanigans 

This Canada Day long weekend has been absolutely amazing! My sister, nephew, daughter, hubby and I drove down to Port Stanley and spent the day at the beach. The water wasn’t as cold as anticipated and the beach wasn’t as crowded as we had expected it to be, since we arrived early. It was an absolute paradise to be there. We spent several hours at the beach in Port Stanley and then drove up to our hotel in London, Ontario.

The hotel was beautiful! It had a water slide, swimming pool, restaurant and was situated between both of our destinations. After spending a long while at the pool, everyone was exhausted and hungry. We got ready and went out to dinner. 

Dinner was delicious and loads of fun with the two kiddies. After returning back to the hotel, we all just crashed and didn’t bother to get up to watch fireworks. 

The following day, we checked out of the hotel, had breakfast at the restaurant in the hotel and then drove up to Grand Bend Beach. 

Grand Bend was absolutely packed but it is one of the most beautiful places I’ve ever been to, especially in Canada. This was probably the highlight of our trip. Nearly a white sandy beach, blue water and the perfect weather. We really lucked out this past weekend and everyone enjoyed themselves immensely.

How did you spend your Canada Day or 4th of July? Share your adventures with me for a chance to be featured here and stay tuned for upcoming details on how I’ve lost 10 lbs in less than 20 days!

Happy Birthday, Canada! We Love You!!


Thank you Canada for being my home away from home. You are truly my first love and every day that I love here, I know I am blessed. The opportunities you’ve given me, the privileges I have here to be free and who I am is a blessing in itself. 

Thank you, Canada for being the best home I have ever known.

Happy Canada Day and 4th of July to everyone north and south of the border. I hope you celebrate your nation by loving your neighbors, appreciating all the opportunities you’ve been given and count your blessings. Have lots of fun and celebrate.

I’ll be doing the same with my fam-jam visiting Lake Erie and Lake Huron over this long weekend. 

Have a great long weekend! I have lots of updates coming up next week, so stay tuned. Xo

I Ripped The Bandaid Off

I’ve finally resigned from my job. After a lot of deliberation and stress, I’ve finally sent my resignation letter to the HR team. The stress I felt and the bullying I dealt with during my time there by my boss was more than I could handle. It caused me severe stress and anxiety. I am not the type of person that gets bothered easily; however, the constant bickering and rudeness just pushed me over the edge. 

It took me nearly four months to come to terms with why my body was reacting the way it was. After endless conversations with my doctor, we came to the conclusion that part of the reason for my illness was physical but mostly the reason was stress and anxiety I was feeling while being at work. 

I spoke to the HR director and told her everything that went on while I was there. I told her that I loved working there and doing what I was doing was a passion but could not longer handle the bullying and drama caused by my boss and therefore, requested I be moved to a different department. I knew that my request would probably not be feasible; but I had to try. Unfortunately, as I had predicted, it wasn’t and so, I resigned. 

It was one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make in the past while. Having no income, no financial stability and security and the loss of benefits has me very nervous. However, I had to do what was best for my physical and mental well-being. I had to put myself first ahead of our financial needs. I know, I sound selfish and maybe even childish. But this was a very well-thought-out decision. I had over fours months to come to this decision and it took a lot out of me to pull this bandage off. 

I don’t know what the future holds for my career. For now, I am assisting my husband with his business as his assistant manager of business development, with the hope of progressing my career and learning new skills in the business world. Currently, he has me doing all of the filing, administrative duties and some accounting. I am also speaking with corporate offices and other businesses to bring in more business to his franchise by setting up catering and house accounts. 

I’ve set a monthly target for myself for the amount of business I bring in and new accounts I produce for him. I need to do this for him and his business but more so, for myself. I need to prove to myself that I am capable and with all of the years of experience in the media industry, I have indeed learned a lot and can act on those skills. 

I know I’ve jeopardized my family’s future by quitting my job; however, I have faith in myself and know I will come out of all this on top and succeed. 

Wish me luck, won’t you? I’ll let you know how I do at the end of my month with my target. Stay tuned and pray for me!

My Brother; My Hero

Sometimes in life there are people that look up to us. They could be younger siblings, colleagues, friends or even spouses. Sometimes these people hold you as their support system and depend on you for complete emotional support and guidance. 

But then they grow up and they shine, bloom and become a responsible and smart human-being. Eventually, the table turns and although, they still look up to you or weigh on you for support and guidance, you begin looking up to them. 

There is a guy in my life just like that. He’s way younger than me. I’ve tried my best to be his best friend, his guidance and his supporter whenever I could and I believe I’ve done a good job at it. But today, as I sit on the subway on my way to an appointment, I couldn’t help but think how proud I am of this guy. I couldn’t help but think how much he has accomplished and what an amazing man he is becoming. 

He is my younger brother, my best friend and has been my support system through all my life. And today, I look up to him for guidance and support. Out of all of my siblings, he has grown up to be the smartest, the brightest, the toughest and the best in all aspects of life. He’s a no bullshit type of guy. He’s not into the drama and takes caution against harming things. He might not financially be there yet but I have no doubt that’s just a matter of time because he had excelled in every other part of life that I can think of. When I look for a male figure to call my idol, he is the one my mind goes to. 

He may never read this post. But if he ever does, I want him to know proud I am of him and how much I love him. I look up to him for becoming the man he has become and hope and pray he will only succeed in everything he does. 

a stubborn desire…

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