You’re looking around at all the beauty that surrounds you. You’re standing there appreciating the Lord’s creations. You’re giving your undivided attention to them. But what you fail to realize is that someone is standing beside you. That someone is watching you looking at the other beauties. That someone is paying attention to the details of those others you are so curious and anxiously staring at. That someone is trying to find the words to bring your attention back to them.
You fail to realize that the person standing next to you was exhausted but put aside their own need for sleep just so they could spend a few precious hours with you. You fail to realize that person did a bunch of chores, although they were exhausted but still made an effort to make sure they looked fresh and beautiful for you. You fail to realize that the person you are spending time with at this very moment needs your attention and is giving YOU their undivided attention. You fail to appreciate them.
And then you wonder why they are quiet, angry or hurt? You don’t even realize it that you’ve disrespected them not once but many times like this and they have stayed quiet and not expressed how terrible it made them feel. You don’t even realize that it takes away from their confidence and embarrasses them when the person they are with makes a point to shift their body towards someone else sitting at another table because she is prettier, skinnier or sexier than the one sitting in front of you.
I am not gorgeous. I am not skinny. I am not sexy. But I am the one you have chosen to be with. I am the one you have asked to come see you. I am the one whose lips you will kiss and who you’ll wrap your arms around. If you can’t appreciate me, then you do not deserve me. You don’t deserve my lips. You don’t deserve my hugs, my care, my attention or my LOVE.
Remain oblivious as much as you may need. The loss will be yours. Not mine. I have loved. You have not. But when you realize ’tis YOU that I have loved, it will be too late to rectify your loss.