A year ago today a visitor to my blog wrote:
I’m a bit older than you…I spent 8 years in a crappy, often abusive marriage. I recently celebrated 9 years of a marriage with a man who is my best friend. Whether it’s my age or the length of time I’ve been married I don’t know, but I do appreciate Valentine’s Day and all the romantic stuff associated with it. My husband & I say ‘I love you’ every day, we have snuggle time, we make time for dates…I suppose for me it’s a day for a little extra specialness
I totally know what she means now. The extra day of specialness is much needed in all relationships. I mean, I don’t expect to be wined and dined at some fancy expensive restaurant that would leave a hole in my dearest D’s wallet. But yes, its true, having that extra day to feel extra special is definitely needed.
Sadly though, D isn’t the romantic type when it comes to thinking about that special day. He does buy me roses here and there and takes good care of me. But today I feel like something is missing. Like I want what my other girlfriends are experiencing today. As corny as it sounds, I too wanted to be surprised at work with roses and chocolates. I too wanted to get dressed up and go out to a romantic candlelight dinner and I too wanted to go for that romantic walk under the moonlight. I just wanted to feel special.
Instead, I’m sitting at home alone. I haven’t even talked to D all evening. I love him dearly and thought of surprising him with another romantic dinner and wine and all that stuff. But it seems like I’m always the one going out of my way to make him feel extra special. I’ve done the romantic dinners and roses and remember during the summer I even did the moonlight balcony picnic? But I don’t even so much as get a romantic text message these days and quite frankly I’m annoyed.
I know love should be around all year long and trust me, it is. He’s very loving but you know that feeling of being appreciated and feeling special, I haven’t gotten that in a while.
Valentine’s Day sucks!