I feel like I need a vacation. Maybe a couple of days away from my regular life and routine. Maybe a weekend spent at a hotel, away from the commotion. Who knows, maybe even a spa weekend just for me. With the baby coming, work being super demanding and things with D being up and down; I think I just need a couple of days to enjoy me time without thinking about anyone or anything else.
With time flying by so quickly, my nervous system is acting up. I am anxious and scared about my little princess arriving and the mother I will be to her; that too if I’ll even be a good mom or not. Plus, there is so much to do still; getting her room ready, buying all the necessities, and the list just goes on.
Work hasn’t been any easier, either lately. With my departure for a year on maternity leave, there are so many initiatives I still need to finish before I can leave. Plus, they might try to find my replacement, so I’ll probably end up training him or her.
Then there are the D things. My emotional roller-coaster these days isn’t easy on either of us. Some days I’m up and some days I’m down; which has resulted in a lot of back and forth with the two of us.
I just feel physically and emotionally exhausted, like life has been drained out of me. I want to get away for some time and just focus on myself. Better yet, I just don’t want to focus on anything and be carefree for a few days. But everything is so expensive. I mean, even staying at a hotel for a couple of nights will bring up a $300-$400 bill and if I want to order room service or use spa facilities, that’s just beyond what I can afford right now.
So, what do I do? Where or how do I find my retreat??? How do I get away without actually being away or spending too much money? Any suggestions?
Sometimes we fight, sometimes we say mean things to each other out of anger. Sometimes we are extremely lovey-dovey. And sometimes we need our space. But no matter what the situation or emotion is for the day, what I find the most fascinating is to be able to fall back in love with your spouse all over again.
They didn’t say anything special. They didn’t do anything extraordinary. They didn’t even buy you a gift. All they did was smile the most genuine way possible. That’s all it took to make me fall back in love with D this morning (not to say that I stopped loving him in the first place).
But that moment when he was still half asleep and I kissed his cheeks and forehead and he smiled every time I kissed him, made me realize how much I love him and I just fell more in love with him. After all the drama, routines and headache of life, I feel blessed this morning to be able to appreciate that simple smile of his and recognize that my hugs and kisses cause him to smile.
You know it’s the little things in our lives and relationships that make the biggest difference.
Happy Thursday, lovies! Hope your day begins with something small that’ll make you smile all day long.
Yesterday, D and I spent the afternoon at the The Ex. For those of you that don’t know what The Ex is, it’s the Canadian National Exhibition. Every year around mid-August to labor day week in September, the CNE holds their yearly fair. It’s been around for ages and I’ve had the pleasure of visiting every year since as long as I can remember. There are lots of rides, food, games and even an international market. Unfortunately, this year due to exhaustion, I was unable to visit the international market. But maybe on my next trip before the end of the season, I’ll make my way to check out all the stalls and sales.
Anyway, I wasn’t able to go on most of the rides besides the fares wheel and sky ride because of being pregnant. But D had a splendid day and really loved the rides. We played games and I even won a stuffed dog for my little angel for when she arrives. The food was amazing with lots of variety to choose from and we even enjoyed a show by two jugglers.
Thought I’d share some photos with you of our day.
After a horrible experience with one of GOSH Hair Dye’s products (Dark Burgundy Red – 336), I contacted their customer service department. After a couple of days of back and forth, they were able to rectify my problem. However, I never got the chance to update all of you with the results of my complaint.
Apparently, GOSH Cosmetics and GOSH Hair products are two different companies, affiliated with each other. However, they operate as individual companies; well, that’s my understanding of their corporate structure anyway. Well, I wasn’t aware of this and was contacting GOSH UK and after countless attempts, my complaint was finally forwarded to the corporate offices in Denmark.
Anyway, after dealing with a rep from the Denmark location, I was quite pleased with results of my complaint. Not only did they tell me why the red didn’t work on my hair, try also were generous enough to recommend a proper color for my hair and send me 3 boxes of hair dye in the recommended color free of charge. They even went as far as sending me a couple of liquid eye liners.
That’s what i call customer service! The rep I dealt with was absolutely pleasant and understanding and even though it took a few weeks to get through, it was completely worth it in the end!
A simple but delicious dry curry, aloo gobi can be added to any Indian menu to please the vegetarian in us. Aloo gobi aka potato and cauliflower, is simple and quick to make.
Here’s what you’ll need:
1 head of cauliflower
2-4 large potatoes
Green chilly pepper
Red pepper powder
Salt to taste
How to make it:
Add the oil to your pan, once heated, add cumin seeds and let sizzle until golden brown. Add finely chopped ginger and green chilly and let cook. Add potatoes (cut into small cubes) and stir. Wait until the potatoes are half cooked and add dry ingredients; turmeric, curry powder, red pepper and salt. Cook until the potatoes are nicely covered but still half raw. Now add the cauliflower and mix well. Reduce heat, cover and let cook on low until cauliflower is cooked, roughly 15-20 minutes.
Voila! There you have it!
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Seems my life keeps taking turns. I’ve been cursed with feelings of hopelessness and depression. Most days I am feeling down and cannot find a way to get my mind out of the rut. After work, exhausted as I may be, I still have too much time on my hands to sit around and think.
The hard truth that I’m learning now is that I don’t have any real friends nearby to help share my time. Both my best friends live in different countries and although I can talk or chat with them whenever I want, it’s just not the same as having them here. I could go out and get some new friends, but building those relationships would take forever, plus I wouldn’t know where to look to find new friends.
So, I’ve been Googling on how to occupy myself in the evenings and weekends so my mind doesn’t have the time to wander into the depression I have around me. D isn’t home enough for him to keep me occupied and when he is, he’s normally tired and wants to rest. Plus, somedays I just need to be away from him because he may have contributed to my depressed state. Don’t get me wrong, he’s my best friend, but he’s also my husband and with that later title things do clash between us here and there.
Anyway, since the weather is good most days, I’m going to restart taking my evening walks. Headphones in, phone on silent mode so no one can disturb me and sneakers on.
I’ve also been trying to find some free prenatal classes in Scarborough but they seem to be quite far from where I live. I’ll keep looking. I think it’ll be good for me to get in those classes as I’ll get to meet mom’s to-be and might even find someone with something in common as me besides the bump. 🙂
Can any of you suggest other ways for me to occupying my time inexpensively? I’m on a massive saving process so that I can purchase a bunch of things for my angel come September (Babies R Us is having a massive baby fest where hundreds of items will be on sale). So, I don’t want to spend too much money preoccupying myself. But I will indulge a bit if the interest strikes.
Please let me know anything you can think of to help me keep busy and come out of this depression.