The Ups and Downs of Life

Sometimes life gives us apples and sometimes life gives us lemons. But all the time life gives us something to learn from, to experience from, to live from. Does that make sense to you?

Sometimes life is a never-ending roller-coaster with far too many turns and bumps. Sometimes its smooth sailing, as if all the winds are in your favor. Sometimes our hearts are content with everything we have and we are grateful. Other times it doesn’t matter how much we have, it’s still not enough.

I’ve gone through this emotional roller-coaster for the past while. There are days when I am happy and at peace with my life; everything seems perfect. I get these funny feelings, mysterious thoughts and unexplained giggles. Nothing could go wrong on those days to bring my mood and spirits down. Those days are the best. I love everything and everyone in my path on those days.

Then there are the days when a black cloud over my head follows me around and rains on everything I seemed to love and be proud of just 24-hours earlier. Nothing seems to go right. I feel miserable and disgusted with life and everything it has. Negativity engulfs me and makes me want to cry. Feelings of resent fill me and make me want to escape.

I get these funny feelings all the time, as if I’m on an emotional roller-coaster all the time. It sucks most of the time to be so high and then so low suddenly. But I’m taking my funny feelings one day at a time and trying to leverage off the high days.

Do you get funny feelings? How do you deal with your ups and downs? Are you depressed? If so, how are you dealing with it?

Health and Weight-Loss Update

After my second 3-day Freshii juice cleanse, I have followed the nutritionist’s recommendations by eating more greens, less processed foods and drinking lots of warm water in the morning and after meals. The other thing I’ve done is drinking a glass of ice-cold water before my meal. I’ve read that drinking a glass of water before a meal can help you feel fuller and prevent over-eating. But drinking a glass of ice-cold water, will do the same thing as well as jump-start your metabolism. Because the water is so cold and our body temperatures are fairly warm, it takes our body more energy to warm up the water and adjust it to our body’s temperature, resulting in more calories used.

I’ve also been trying to walk more and count my steps. They say, it is essential to have at least 10K steps a day to boost weight-loss. I think I’ve only hit 10K about 2-3 times a week. But I am maintaining at least 5K steps daily. I’ve even started taking the stairs more often in my building.

I’ll be honest, I haven’t seen significant weight-loss. But then again, I’ve had far too many “cheat-days” as well. I associate my depression with eating and vice-verse and the past couple of weeks have been quite difficult for me when it comes to my emotional roller-coaster. No, I am not making excuses. It’s true, I’ve been slightly lazy to actively attempt to lose weight but the depression isn’t helping my cause either.

Anyway, the second juice cleanse was easier than the first because I was prepared for it, plus I had my post-cleanse  recommendations and strategy planned and ready. I think I might re-do the cleanse in late May. I find that if you follow the recommendations from the nutritionist, you don’t feel bloated and miserable after. This time around, I actually felt lighter and less drained.

I’ll keep you posted on my progress and decision to do the cleanse again or not. Stay tuned and stay healthy!

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Recipe of the Week: Channa Curry (Chickpea Curry)

Going through all the recipes on my blog, I realized that one recipe I completely forgot to post was one of the curries I cook the most and has become my specialty; channa curry. This is a quick recipe that will really hit the spot but won’t exhaust you in the process.

Here’s what you need:

  • 1 can chickpeas (don’t drain the water)
  • 1-2 chopped onions
  • 2 tbsp. chopped ginger
  • 1 tsp. finely chopped coriander
  • 1 tsp. turmeric powder
  • 1 tsp. salt
  • 1 tsp. red chilly powder
  • 1 tsp. garam masala
  • 2-3 tsp. curry powder
  • 1 tsp. jeera
  • 1 cup water
  • 2-3 tbsp. oil
  • 1 tbsp. pre-mixed channa masala (if available)

Here’s what you do:

  • Heat oil and add jeera. Let jeera sizzle until golden brown
  • Add onions, ginger and salt and let cool until onions are brown
  • Add dry spices (curry powder, garam masala, chilly, turmeric and channa masala). Cook until oil begins to rise or separate from the mixture
  • Add chickpeas with water, mix well and let boil for 10-15 minutes or until chickpeas are fully cooked
  • Add coriander and cook for 5-7 minutes

Remove from heat and serve with basmati rice and sliced onions. Voila. A delicious and easy recipe to help satisfy your curry cravings!

Bon Appetite!

A Mini Break From Blogging

Last week was a hectic and busy week. Plus, I hadn’t felt the will to write either and so decided I would take a mini break away from blogging. It helped.

I feel refreshed and was able to clear my mind of all the negative energy that was building up inside of me. Sometimes when suffering from depression, it helps to stop doing everything you’ve been doing and just relax and stop focusing on it all. 

I’ve put together a couple of blog posts for this week that I’m sure all of you will enjoy. You’ll see the relaxation I needed in my posts. Thanks for coming back regularly and checking up on me. I’ll have some great posts for you this week, now that I’m feeling better.

Happy Sunday! Hope you’re refreshed and energized for the week ahead, as am I.



Have you ever been online, playing a game for instance and received a random hello from your opponent? Or randomly met the same person online over and over that you begin chatting with them every day? Your chats go off the gaming medium to a chat server. You exchange photos of each other, email addresses, even phone numbers.  

Eventually, you decided that you want to speak to them on the phone. The phone conversation turns from a 10-15 minute call to a 6-7 hours one. This person, you’ve never met becomes your closest and dearest friend. You spend endless hours chatting, skyping and talking on the phone with them.

But you’ve never met them.

There are no chances of you meeting them. You are living on two different parts of the world. The physical difference is too great. Nothing you do or they do can bring the two of you physically closer.

Life goes on. You lose contact with your friend. They move forward in their life, as do you.

But somewhere in your heart, in your mind, in your day-to-day routine, they are there. They are everywhere you are. But they are never near, nor ever far. Years pass by and you suddenly think, maybe it’s time I need to reach out again. I need this person to know I still exist, that I am still where I was 10 years ago. You expect them to have forgotten you.

But they haven’t.

They remember every conversation, every experience, every detail, as do you. It dawns on you that they are where you left them 10 years ago; the same place you are. Nothing has changed. But everything has. You are still you, the you, you were 10 years ago. They are still them, the way they were 10 years ago.

No, nothing has changed.

Your simple request to speak to them takes you back 10 years and it’s like nothing has changed. But you both know that things cannot be as they were before. So after the many hours of conversation, you bid your farewell and promise to not call them often. But do emphasis that you’ll reach out to them every few years and wish them a happy life, as they wish you one too.

Life goes back to what it was before that morning. You feel content with yourself and your life. You know their presence is missing from your life but you are happy knowing that after all these years they haven’t forgotten you and remain as your friend.

They are your soul-mate. No marriage. No child. No other friend can change that. This stranger, you know everything about is your soul-mate and that’s enough for you to go on with your life, for they are with you everyday, everywhere, all around.

A feeling of defeat

I feel defeated today. Defeated by my relationships. Defeated by my career. Defeated by my finances. I feel as if all happiness has been lost. I feel hopeless. 

I don’t have a tear to shed today. Just silence. The urge to scream. But then again silence. 

Little things made me happy not so long ago. Today nothing seems to bring happiness to my face or heart. 

I feel defeated today. 

Happy Easter & Long-Weekend


Happy Easter to all celebrating and happy long-weekend to those not celebrating. Hope you’re enjoying your weekend with friends and family, as I am. Ni received a couple of cute-cuddly friends from me and our neighbour and has had so much chocolate eggs this weekend. Today her grandparents are picking her up for the rest of the weekend and I’m sure they’re going to add to her goodies collection!

Hope you’re enjoy your weekend as much as we are!