My brain has gone to hell lately. Every time I think about writing, I cannot be bothered to or I cannot figure out what to write. Quite frankly, I have been very distracted lately. There has been too much crap going on at home, school and just overall with me. So, I disappeared for a couple of days with a friend of mine.
We took a 1600 km drive to and from Virginia and Washington DC. There was no planned destination or attractions in mind. Matter of fact, there was no plan at all. I just wanted to drive for as long as we could, blast the music, smoke endless cigarettes, and have the windows down, forget about everyone and everything that was stressing me out and just be free.
It was a refreshing trip, helped clear my head. I realized I needed to get my priorities straightened out and focus on the most important things in my life right now: school and Nid. Everyone and everything else would have to be secondary to these two because they require my attention the most.
I have been messing around with school for a couple of months now and although my grades haven’t dropped, my attendance has become ridiculously poor. I haven’t been sleeping much lately; which ends up resulting in me staying home because my body and brain are so exhausted. The illnesses and clusterfuck that is going on in my head have had me all over the place.
If that wasn’t stupid enough, I realized during my trip that I have not been focusing on Nid as much as I used to before. Not to say that I’ve deprived her of anything or completely forgotten about her, but I have noticed that with my own struggle with myself, I may have neglected her a bit. Over the past few days, I have been concentrating on her and trying to spend a bit more time with her, focusing on the activities she enjoys doing. I have decided to set aside one hour every day where we enjoy each other’s company, play games, study, read a book or go for a walk together. It is mine and her time to do whatever her heart desires.
I’m glad that I was able to take a couple of days away to clear my head. It is very important to take a day or two away from all of your responsibilities to recuperate yourself. It is extremely important to take care of yourself first before you can take care of anyone else and I did exactly that.
Here are some shots from the gorgeous views we encountered on our road trip. I hope they will inspire you to take a road trip yourself or find a way to convalesce your mind.
Xoxo ~ Tamana