Road Trip

IMG_9897My brain has gone to hell lately. Every time I think about writing, I cannot be bothered to or I cannot figure out what to write. Quite frankly, I have been very distracted lately. There has been too much crap going on at home, school and just overall with me. So, I disappeared for a couple of days with a friend of mine.

We took a 1600 km drive to and from Virginia and Washington DC. There was no planned destination or attractions in mind. Matter of fact, there was no plan at all. I just wanted to drive for as long as we could, blast the music, smoke endless cigarettes, and have the windows down, forget about everyone and everything that was stressing me out and just be free.

It was a refreshing trip, helped clear my head. I realized I needed to get my priorities straightened out and focus on the most important things in my life right now: school and Nid. Everyone and everything else would have to be secondary to these two because they require my attention the most.

I have been messing around with school for a couple of months now and although my grades haven’t dropped, my attendance has become ridiculously poor. I haven’t been sleeping much lately; which ends up resulting in me staying home because my body and brain are so exhausted. The illnesses and clusterfuck that is going on in my head have had me all over the place.

If that wasn’t stupid enough, I realized during my trip that I have not been focusing on Nid as much as I used to before. Not to say that I’ve deprived her of anything or completely forgotten about her, but I have noticed that with my own struggle with myself, I may have neglected her a bit. Over the past few days, I have been concentrating on her and trying to spend a bit more time with her, focusing on the activities she enjoys doing. I have decided to set aside one hour every day where we enjoy each other’s company, play games, study, read a book or go for a walk together. It is mine and her time to do whatever her heart desires.

I’m glad that I was able to take a couple of days away to clear my head. It is very important to take a day or two away from all of your responsibilities to recuperate yourself. It is extremely important to take care of yourself first before you can take care of anyone else and I did exactly that.

Here are some shots from the gorgeous views we encountered on our road trip. I hope they will inspire you to take a road trip yourself or find a way to convalesce your mind.

Xoxo ~ Tamana

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Self-Care & Love

image1 (5)We are bound by the responsibilities and relationships we’ve created for ourselves. We are busy maintaining these every day. It’s very easy to get caught up in the daily hustles and  forget that self-love and care should be an essential part of our daily lives as well.

We are super-mom/dad, super-student/employee, daughter/son, the list goes on and on. We have so many roles we play every single day.

But let me ask you this, how often do you take a minute to sit, reflect and recuperate yourself? How often do you sit back and be yourself, YOU and only YOU, as a whole?

It’s important to take a few minutes, a half-hour, even an hour and just be with yourself; to care for yourself; to do something that you truly love doing and that makes you happy.

Because without self-care, nourishment and love, it is impossible to give our relationships and responsibilities the attention and care they need.

Have you heard the instructions the flight-attendants give before the flight takes off? “Put your oxygen mask on first before helping someone else.” Do you know what that means? It means that you need to take care of yourself first before you try to take care of anyone else. If you are not complete within yourself, there is no way you will be a complete mom, employee, daughter, friend to anyone else.

So, every day, I wake a little earlier than I probably should, make myself a cup of coffee, turn on the news and just sit on my couch and relax. I enjoy the personal time, the quiet, the time where I am not responsible for anyone or anything besides finishing that cup of coffee. I also do this every night after Nid goes to sleep. I sit, I listen to music, I put on a face mask to rejuvenate my skin and relax on the couch before heading to bed.

It’s a simple way to prepare yourself for the day and unwind after a hectic day. It’s my time to be myself, to let loose, to forget everything I worried about the day before and through the day. It’s a way for me to listen to all the noise in my head and sort it out. It’s a time for me to reflect on all the emotions of the day and translate them into what they mean/meant to me. It’s a time for me to write my thoughts down or smile remembering something that made my heart warm throughout the day. It’s my time to be me, just me and for my sanity and productivity.

How do you unwind? How do you give back to yourself what you’ve given out to all your loved ones and responsibility? Is there something you do that brings you back to utter peace and calmness?

~Tamana