Do you ever catch yourself daydreaming? Do you ever catch yourself thinking uncontrollably about being happy? Do you ever find yourself lost in a different world?
I chose to be happy. Life isn’t perfect. The characters in this life aren’t perfect either. But I decided to look beyond perfection and choose happiness instead of picking at flaws.
Maybe it is the decision of wanting to exhale all the bullshit I’ve kept inside me for long. Maybe it is all about finding myself and loving myself all over again. Maybe it is choosing to accept the things I cannot change and making the best out of the worst situations I could be in.
Whatever the cause maybe; I feel light, at peace and content in this moment and I haven’t felt that in many years.
Life will always throw curveballs your way and try to push you off track. The thing to keep in mind is to catch that ball and throw it back even harder than it originally came at you. So, I’m doing just that: throwing back all the negativity and fuckery thrown at me and allowing myself to only accept happiness and things that feed my soul.
I’ve caught myself daydreaming, lost in another dimension, in love madly with my person and I haven’t felt more beautiful, relieved and at one with myself than I have ever before.
So, go #exhalethebullshit and fall in love with life again because yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn’t promised. Life is too short to be anything but happy.
I feel like I have abandoned my blog lately. But so much is going on that I can’t find the time to write and when the opportunity does present itself, I’m lost in thoughts so deeply that my fingers can’t seem to form words.
I’m nearly at the end of my medical office course and the schedule and course-load has jumped into fast gear. There’s a lot to study these days and although I should probably be studying right now, I’m procrastinating. But this procrastination is a good one, since I’m actually doing something productive by blogging!
Anyway, the update is that my health is absolute shit right now, my heart hurts more days than it feels warm and light, I’ve only lost about 8 lbs. since I began working out and trying to focus on eating properly (which for the record, isn’t going well either). I let someone back into my life a few months ago, well to be honest, they never left my life, we just didn’t talk for a while. But they’re back and I have found myself smiling even when there’s nothing to smile about. However, due to their return, my mind has been really focused on them lately. And no, I’m not going into detail on who they are and why they’re back. If you know my past, you know who they are and you also know how this person can never leave, no matter what happens in our lives.
That’s where I am right now. School and my health are really kicking my ass lately and that leaves me drained and I’ve found myself over medicating to get rest. But out of all the craziness and stupidity that is my life right now, I have to say, intermittent fasting has been keeping me going. It’s been about 2 weeks and I don’t feel hungry or deprived. I’m drinking way more water than I used to and even saying no to Coke more often, finally!
I have three more months of school and placement to go and then I’m rewarding myself with a trip of a lifetime before I start looking for jobs and getting back into the grind! I’ll tell you guys more about this trip in another post because right now I’ve got to get my ass off my phone and into my books to study for my exam tomorrow morning.
Maybe this post is a bit late. It should’ve gone live at midnight on the 12th but due to unforeseen circumstances, I didn’t get to post it.
If you’ve followed my blog for the past few years, you’ll know who my soulmate is and if you haven’t well, tough luck. You can try and figure it out by going back into the posts of 2015 and you’ll find it.
Anyway, I wanted to say Happy Birthday to him today because I know eventually, one day, he will read it and know that there’s nothing in the world that could ever let me forget him. Maybe I haven’t called to wish him for many years, but life happens and well, he’ll understand and know why today I am and why I haven’t in all the past years.
So, today, I want to wish you happiness, love and success in everything you do. And although, we’re far apart today, distance is just an obstacle, nothing could let me forget you or our relationship. We’ve never met but if anyone knew the bond we shared, they’d never guess that, for you and I share a bond that is beyond this world, dimension and life. Happy Birthday chand!
Happy Birthday to an amazing sister. I hope you have the best day and your year ahead is full of accomplishments and happiness.
I know we fight, we argue and even go days without talking to each other but the one thing I never forget is that I will always have your back no matter what, just like you’ll always have mine. I guess, that’s the thing with sisters, we have a hate, love type of relationship that is indestructible. No matter what happens in our lives and no matter where we go, we will always find each other.
I want you to know that I love you dearly, even when I’m mad at you or upset with you. There is nothing or no one that can change that. I will always be here whenever you need me.
I wish you all the finest the world has to offer and pray you find happiness today and always. Happy Birthday, Nehu! Love you lots!