I feel like I need a vacation. Maybe a couple of days away from my regular life and routine. Maybe a weekend spent at a hotel, away from the commotion. Who knows, maybe even a spa weekend just for me. With the baby coming, work being super demanding and things with D being up and down; I think I just need a couple of days to enjoy me time without thinking about anyone or anything else.
With time flying by so quickly, my nervous system is acting up. I am anxious and scared about my little princess arriving and the mother I will be to her; that too if I’ll even be a good mom or not. Plus, there is so much to do still; getting her room ready, buying all the necessities, and the list just goes on.
Work hasn’t been any easier, either lately. With my departure for a year on maternity leave, there are so many initiatives I still need to finish before I can leave. Plus, they might try to find my replacement, so I’ll probably end up training him or her.
Then there are the D things. My emotional roller-coaster these days isn’t easy on either of us. Some days I’m up and some days I’m down; which has resulted in a lot of back and forth with the two of us.
I just feel physically and emotionally exhausted, like life has been drained out of me. I want to get away for some time and just focus on myself. Better yet, I just don’t want to focus on anything and be carefree for a few days. But everything is so expensive. I mean, even staying at a hotel for a couple of nights will bring up a $300-$400 bill and if I want to order room service or use spa facilities, that’s just beyond what I can afford right now.
So, what do I do? Where or how do I find my retreat??? How do I get away without actually being away or spending too much money? Any suggestions?