Category Archives: My Life

Life of a mom-in-training. Everything from emotional confessions, relationships details and tips and daily life.

Do You Ever Feel Like Disappearing?

As I look out at the endless horizon ahead of me in the above picture, I realize that lately, I’ve felt the need to get away, disappear or just be forgotten by everyone. I want to quit my job, sell all my belongings and take my child and husband and disappear somewhere far away; maybe start a new life.

It’s not that I’m depressed or sad or even mad at anyone or anything in my current environment and life; I’m just bored. I’m tired of the day-to-day challenges, responsibilities and routines. I need some change and excitement in my world and as much as I love my city, I’m a little tired of it and bored by it.

But with a growing child, who needs to be educated and probably requires some stability, I don’t see myself or our family going anywhere anytime soon. Plus, I highly doubt I could convince Dev to leave everything here and start anew.

Going on vacation won’t satisfy the urge for excitement either because I probably won’t want to come back from wherever I end up going/if I end up going. I need a more permanent change.

Any suggestions? Have any of you just closed all ties in a city or country and suddenly moved somewhere new and started all over again? Share you stories with me!

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Quick Update

A photo from near the cottage I recently visited in Minden, ON

It’s been a few weeks since I’ve written; a lot has happened over the past few weeks. My grand mother passed away, my mother had stints put into 2 of her arteries due to 90% blockage, I took a break and escaped to a cottage for a couple of days and then I injured my back and shoulder at work. Needless to say, I’ve been busy, stressed and frustrated; which has caused me to stay away from most social media and my blog.

I’m doing physio 2-3 times a week and hopefully will begin some massages soon too. But I’m on so much painkillers and muscle relaxers and sadly nothing seems to be helping yet.

I’ve also been trying to lose weight and was doing great for a few days and managed to drop 10 lbs. being on the cabbage soup diet but all of the above events took place and I stopped doing what I was doing. However, I feel mentally stable today and have vouched to myself to get myself going again.

My brother is getting married at the end of the summer and I really want to look amazing in the outfit I’ve chosen to wear for the wedding. Plus, I need to find a dress for the reception, so I want to drop a size or two before I go dress shopping.

That’s what my life has been up to lately. I promise I’ll start writing again more frequently soon. But right now my priority is losing weight and recovering and healing my back and shoulder injury.

Hope you’re all doing great and enjoying the nice weather, finally! Have a blessed week and stay tuned for more posts (I promise their coming).

Xoxo ~ Tamana

Happy Mother’s Day

Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers, aunts and grandmothers out there. I hope your loved ones spoil you rotten today and all year through.

I am spending my Mother’s Day at work but spent my Saturday with my mother and sister. I got them a cake and a beautiful hanging plant for the house and made them lunch. It was a good day and time well spent.

My little munchkin grew a sunflower plant at school and made me a beautiful card; which was the best present ever. This evening when I get home from work, I’ll spend more time with her and maybe we’ll have an early movie night or a walk to the park if she wants.

How are you spending your Mother’s Day? Are you doing something special for a mother or woman in your life today or are you the special woman in someone’s life and are being spoilt today? I’d love to hear how you spend your day!

Have a blessed day and give lots of love to the women in your world today. Xoxo

~ Tamana

Quick Update

I know I’ve been away from my blog for longer than I am comfortable but it’s been a couple of busy weeks. Also, I fell a couple of weeks ago and have been taking it extremely easy so that I could heal. Don’t worry, I’m completely okay but had a nasty fall from a chair trying to reach something high on a shelf. I’m all better now with very minimal aches and pain.

Aside from that, it’s been the regular work and home craziness that has kept me busy and mentally preoccupied. I did however get a new tattoo!!! It’s my Mother’s Day present from Dev and Nid and it’s a present for my parents.

I got Maa and Paa written on my arm in beautiful Hindi and English. Here’s a picture; tell me what you think!

I saw a similar tattoo online and decided to draw it myself and get it inked on my forearm. It’s still healing but looks absolutely beautiful and my mother was so touched by it. My father on the other hand doesn’t like tattoos, so he didn’t comment much about it.

Anyway, my loves, that’s basically all that’s been going on at my end these past few weeks. I’ve got a new recipe I want to share with all of you this week and news about my never ending journey to weight loss and getting healthy. I’ll post about those later this week as I’m out of time now and need to get myself ready for work.

Stay blessed and have a fantastic week ahead. Stay tuned for weight loss details! Xoxo

~Tamana

6 Years and Going Strong (Amen)

Thank you for being my rock during these years. I look forward to spending the rest of my life with you and making more beautiful memories as we have done so far.

Thank you for being that special person I get to annoy for the rest of my life.

Love you ~ Xoxo

~Tamana

Happy Birthday Hubby

Happy 36 to my darling hubby; my partner in crime, the best father Nid could ever have, my best friend and my support system.

I wish you all the world has to offer and then some. I wish you love beyond you can handle and happiness that never dulls. You are what makes me feel so great about myself and I am ever so thankful to be sharing this life with you.

🎈🎊Happy Birthday, darling! 🎊🎈

Cake and a special card from his munchkin

Munchkin with her dad early this morning blowing candles, cutting the cake and giving him her special card she picked out all by herself.

I Got A Job

As you all know, I’ve been job hunting over the past couple of months. But I’ve also been very picky with where I apply and where I work. I didn’t want to just work anywhere and for the sake of money; I wanted to find an employer where I could be happy, where there was ample room for growth and where I could build a career.

After my clinical training in a long-term care facility, I was definite that I didn’t want to work in that environment. The caregiver to patient ratio is absolutely devastating. I understand that many people or their family’s cannot afford private care, but it depresses me to see one PSW working with 10, 11 or 12, 13, etc. patients.; its unfair to the patients and to the caregivers/PSWs. It’s physically draining for the PSW and the patient doesn’t get all the time, affection or compassion they need and deserve.

Don’t get me wrong, many of the PSW’s that work in long-term care are extremely compassionate and loving but when you have 10 or 11 patients that require you to do nearly everything for them and you’re on time restrictions to get everything done in time for breakfast, lunch, dinner or activities; it makes it hard to spend the time time comfort or reassure the patients.

Long-term care homes break my heart and when I think about why I got into this profession, I cannot make myself want to work like that, even if the money is better than in other places.

So, I searched for retirement homes that were hiring and reached out to friends in the industry to see if they knew anywhere that was hiring and hold behold, a friend came through and submitted my resume at his workplace.

I began interviewing before the holidays at this luxurious retirement home; I call it luxurious because it is so beautifully built and kept, it looks better than many five-star hotels. As the new year began, I was losing hope because I hadn’t heard back from the hiring manager; which was strange because the interviews went so well. Even one of my former office managers whom I used as a referral told me the hiring manager was thrilled by the feedback she gave her. So, why wasn’t the call coming?

The holidays and busyness leading up to them got her schedule completely full and she wasn’t able to get back to me until after the break. Thankfully though, I got the call and was hired as a permanent part-time resident care partner (RCP), it’s a fancier word for Personal Support Worker. But I’m happy with the title and position.

I started working a couple of weeks ago picking up causal shifts here and there and will officially start on my permanent shift starting this Sunday. I’m a little nervous but have faith that I will excel and be one of the best care providers that I can be.

Wish me luck and send me your blessings so that I may provide the best compassionate care to my residents and succeed in the vision I have of myself doing this job.

Xoxo ~ Tamana