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Living Our Best Fake Lives

A couple of days ago I decided to deactivate my Facebook account. I have been an active member of Facebook for over nine years. However, over the past couple of weeks, I realized that everything we post on Facebook and other social media platforms is only partially true. We are all living our best fake lives when sharing them on social media websites and apps. We never post pictures of the depression we deal with or the miseries and setbacks we encounter.

Why is that?

Why is it that we must show the world our very best and not things that make us weak or fragile? After all, each and every one of us struggles with something or the other. But why is it that we only capture the good things that happen to us and share those? Why is it okay to suffer in solitude but celebrate in a crowd?

I recently read a quote that said:

We are a sad generation with happy pictures. – author unknown

The quote struck a nerve with me and resulted in me deactivating my Facebook account. I am tired of showing family and a few very close friends only the partial truth of my life. Yes, my Instagram account is still active and I post on it frequently but do you know what the difference between my Facebook and Instagram account is? My Facebook account had all my family from overseas on it and Instagram has a few friends, many acquaintances and tons of strangers on it. On Instagram I am open about my feelings and miseries, I frequently share quotes about things that may be happening in my life at the moment. Quite frankly, on Instagram I don’t care if anyone judges me because they are not family. But on Facebook, I posted the happy family moments, shared my achievements and celebrations. Because somewhere deep down I know that if I shared the miseries or full reality of my life, I would be judged by my family.

How pathetic is that? We wear a mask in front of our family and bare it all for complete strangers. But that is the reality many of us are living.

With all the changes happening in my life right now, I decided I didn’t want to pretend to be a happy person just for the sake of not being judged, so I deactivated my Facebook account. The family that wants to stay in touch with me will do so by other means and if they actually care enough to know what the full reality of my life is they’ll contact me and ask. Simple as that.

I’m done pretending that I’m living my best life, when in reality that isn’t the truth. Everyone has ups and downs in life, some more than others, either way, we all struggle. So, why put on a show pretending that all is perfect and well when the truth is far from that?

~Tamana

Good Morning From Paradise

I made it to made to Nai Harn, Phuket late last night, took a much needed shower and fell asleep. It was one heck of a journey to get here but I finally made it!

I woke up early this morning and arranged my clothes and belongings. Then headed to the front desk to figure out food and how to get around locally. The owner is an Italian gentleman who moves to Thailand ten years ago with a friend and ended up getting married and staying here for good. He was really nice and drove me on his scooter to the nearby 7-11 to pick up some food and drinks. Apparently, it’s off season so, the hotel doesn’t have a bar or breakfast as anticipated. But just down the street are numerous restaurants and bars. So, maybe tomorrow I’ll venture out and go check out the local market.

This is definitely a relaxation retreat. It’s low key, up on a mountain away from all the crazy city life. I am hoping this will unblock my mind and inspire me to start writing again. I am really hoping to begin planning out the chapters of my book and get some writing done.

For now, however, I am going to take a nap and try to get over the exhaustion from my flights and travel here. Until I post again, stay blessed and keep an eye out on my Instagram account for photos from my journey and my surroundings. Xoxox much needed shower and fell asleep. It was one heck of a journey to get here but I finally made it!

I woke up early this morning and arranged my clothes and belongings. Then headed to the front desk to figure out food and how to get around locally.

The owner is an Italian gentleman who moved to Thailand ten years ago with a friend and ended up getting married and staying here for good. He was really nice and drove me on his scooter to the nearby 7-11 to pick up some food and drinks. Apparently, it’s off season so, the hotel doesn’t have a bar or breakfast as anticipated. But just down the street are numerous restaurants, thankfully. So, maybe tomorrow I’ll venture out and go check out the local market.

This is definitely a relaxation retreat. It’s low key, up on a mountain away from all the crazy city life. I am hoping this will unblock my mind and inspire me to start writing again. I am really hoping to begin planning out the chapters of my book and get some writing done.

For now, however, I am going to take a nap and try to get over the exhaustion from my flights and travel here. Until I post again, stay blessed and keep an eye out on my Instagram account for photos from my journey and my surroundings. Xoxo

~Tamana

Eat. Pray. Love.

Today I am leaving for my 17-day, solo trip to Phuket, Thailand. I know I said I would tell all of you about this trip a while ago, however, it’s taken me a lot of courage to pull this trip into reality. It’s been months of talking about, planning and finally working up the guts to put it into action. I literally cried the day I finally booked the ticket and paid for the hotel.

Originally, what was just a random idea, a thought that began over friends making never-to-happen plans, developed into a need that had to be fulfilled.

I have always dreamt of taking a trip by myself, venturing out in a new city alone and discovering beauty in a different culture and lifestyle. However, I never thought I would be able to fulfill that dream due to my responsibilities and family life. But here I am, sitting at the airport shaking with nervousness and anticipation.

My Medical Office Administrator course is complete. I am graduating on October 24 with honours. My name has been put into the name of eligible students to become a valedictorian. I have done exceptionally well with this phase of my life and I am proud of myself for taking on another venture and succeeding beyond my own expectations.

I have been a decent mother, wife, daughter, sister and friend to my circle. However, with the requirements of fulfilling those relationships, I have stopped being a good me. I have lost myself. I have forgotten who I was and who I wanted to be. I have let myself run towards life without actually knowing where I was heading or wanted to end up.

Every time I catch myself running, I stop dead in my tracks and realize that I don’t know where I want to go. I have been questioning my motives and desires. I have been resenting my relationships because they have taken so much of me away from me. I have started to become destructive and careless with how I treat myself.

I am tired of dieting and trying to lose weight. I am tired of questioning my deen and faith in Allah. I am tired of loving everyone unconditionally and giving my all. I am tired of being everything to everyone and nothing to myself.

I am exhausted.

This trip is a journey for me to find myself. To eat and of course, drink guilt-free without putting myself down or worry about how I’ll look after gaining yet another 10 pounds. It’s a trip for me to find peace through prayer and devotion. To sleep in without worrying of responsibilities and staying up late without caring about the dark circles under my eyes. It’s a trip for me to find love within myself, to assess and analyze my relationships and friendships and understand them. It’s a trip for me to find me, again and come back stronger, wiser and more determined than ever to make my goals happen!

This trip is also an opportunity for me write that book I’ve been writing for the past 5+ years. Yes, I’m referring to my autobiography; which isn’t an autobiography anymore and has become a story. A story about unconditional and incomplete love. A story about devotion and belief in another soul. A story about endless tests passed and lessons learned. It is a story about a million wishes and desires and how life can happen but what is meant to be will always find its way back to you.

It has taken me many years to come to terms with the fact that this is what my reality is and this is the life I have chosen. Now that I have realized so many truths about myself, it has become important to write the story. I strongly believe that when you can tell your story without crying or breaking down, then and only then have you healed by what you went through. Today, I am ready to tell my story; which is why I have begun writing again. I’m hoping to spend time on this trip and plan out the chapters and continue writing from where I left off five years ago.

Anyway, back to the trip, I’m about to board my first flight. I am flying from Toronto to Shanghai and then to Phuket. Unfortunately, I have a 20+ hour layover in Shanghai before my flight to Phuket. Thankfully, my CIBC Gold Adventura Visa gives me access to 1000+ VIP lounges across the world. Free food, drinks, showers, Wi-Fi and possible sleeper chairs are only some of the perks of the lounge and card. So, I’ll definitely be uploading photos on Instagram while I’m waiting for the connecting flight to Phuket and I’ll try my best to post when I can.

Wish me luck and send positive energy and prayers my way. I hope I find myself again, come to terms with the decisions I need to make, find my path and of course, get over this writers block. Until then, stay blessed, connect with me on Instagram (@ziddi) to see my adventures and come back to read all about my travel through Phuket! Xoxo

~Tamana

Mom-In-Training: Busy Mom

I haven’t been writing much lately; partially due to being obsessed with playing games on my phone and partially due to being busy with home, work and a major project to redecorate Nid’s bedroom. She’s growing up so fast and I’m just trying to keep up with her.

She had a lot of baby/toddler toys and furniture lying around collecting dust, so I decided to sell whatever I could and buy her some new stuff. She has one of those cute loft beds but it’s currently in the bottom position and I would like her to start sleeping on the top so that I can create a cute, cosy desk area and reading nook for her.

I found some great ideas on Pinterest for her room but there is one particular one that caught my eye. Here’s a pic of it. Sorry I don’t have credits from what website it was on, so if you know who originally posted this picture let me know and I’ll give them credit for it.

Nid’s bedroom walls are a similar colour and so, I’m recreating this room with a few of mine and Nid’s ideas.

I’ve been looking for a purple shag rug for the past few weeks and can not find any that are budget-friendly; so I’m making her one! I found a great video on Instagram showing how to make mats, I’ve decided to take it up a notch and am creating 5×6 rug. It is a lot of effort and is taking quite some time, however, it’s costing me a fraction of the price to make and with being home most of the week, I can afford to take my time to make it for her. Here’s how far I’ve gotten:

I will post pictures of it when it’s a bit further along and maybe even a how-to tutorial.

We have a $250 budget with most of the funds coming from selling her old toys, clothes and accessories. I’m keeping a very tight lock on my wallet because it’s so easy for me to get carried away with buying accessories and decorations. Stay tuned for more updates on her room!

Have a fantastic week and stay blessed.

Xoxo ~ Tamana

Your Weekly Dose Of Funny

Happy Friday, my darling!

I am so happy it’s Friday.  This week was interesting and busy and I feel tired. But mostly it’s been good. I had lunch with a colleague/friend from my old workplace yesterday; which was great.   Me and her have kept in touch via text and Facebook, but it was nice seeing her and grabbing a bite, while we chat and gossip.

Tonight, D, Ni and I are going out for dinner – YAY for no cooking! Then this weekend, we’re going to pick up a new mattress for Ni’s bed, a carpet and some storage unit for all her toys and fix up her bedroom so that she can spend more time in there. She’s almost three, can you believe it? She’s becoming such a big girl. It amazes me that I’m the mother of an almost-three year old. 

So, those are the plans for the weekend. I’m rocking a new hairstyle these days (hint: there are lots of pics on Instagram) and a new shade of lipstick (Strawberry Kiss – can you say Wowza?). Thought I’d end the summer with a fashion-bang! Do check out the pics on Instagram and let me know what you think! Oh and I finally decided to add a full-face pic too, so now you can see what I look like!

Anyway, lovelies, have a fantabulous Friday; laugh, do silly things and sparkle and have a fantastic weekend. Xoxo. Here’s your daily dose of funny!

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A New Obsession: Farah Dhukai Tutorials

Snapshot of www.dhukai.com
Snapshot of http://www.dhukai.com

I’ve fallen madly in love with this website and YouTube channel by Farah Dhukai. She has amazing skin, gorgeous hair and exceptionally helpful tutorials. I’ve followed her on Instagram for a long while now and decided to check out her YouTube channel and am in love with her tutorials.

She’s a makeup guru. She provides great tutorials and how-to information, plus she does her research and gives facts about the products and ingredients she uses on her hair, face and skin. And if that doesn’t get you excited, she also has giveaways every once-in-a-while for great stuff. Currently, she has a NuMe Products giveaway going on.

I just had to share this online guru with all of you because she has become my idol. I am so in love with her hair! OMG! I cannot even explain what amazing and healthy looking hair she has. Plus, she uses most natural ingredients, right out of her kitchen to care for herself. The DIY tutorials are what you all really need to look into.

I’m going to try out some of her tutorials and post reviews on here soon. I’ve already tried the How to Reduce Under-eye Puffiness tutorial and it worked as a charm. I saw instant results and didn’t have any skin reaction to the ingredients she recommended to use.

You have to check her out! I can guarantee, after going through her DIY/Remedies section, you’ll barely ever hit the drug store again for your beauty needs! Check out Farah Dhukai’s website here.

~Tamana~

p.s. This endorsement of Farah Dhukai is solely my choice and I have not been paid or hired by her to post about her or her website. I am sharing my opinion solely at my discretion. Should you wish to follow her blog, YouTube channel or try any of her tutorials you do so, at your own will. 

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