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When It Rains It Pours

Good morning, my lovelies. I’ve been procrastinating to write lately. Our lives have turned into a shit-show over the past few weeks. I’ve finished all my placement requirements and will write my exam on Tuesday. The end of my course is here and time has flown by too quickly.

I had planned to begin preparing for the Registered Practical Nursing program as soon as my exam for this course was over. However, now that plan seems highly unlikely to begin.

D’s lost his job and is home most days and we’re struggling to make ends meet. I’ve got bills coming out of my arse and things are just going haywire from there. Everything just seems like a complete cluster-fuck right now with no light at the end of the tunnel.

I’ve begun apply for jobs already and as much as I should be focusing on my studying, I’ve barely opened my books since all this began. Every time I think about studying my mind drifts away to the daily stresses that are my life right now and I can’t concentrate. So, I put away my books and end up sitting idly staring at the wall.

That’s where we are right now. It is what it is. I best I can do right now is not break down and allow this crap to take its course and not break us down in the process.

Tuesday is my exam, so please send me lots of positive energy and blessings. I’m fairly confident about my knowledge and ability to pass but still blessings never go unanswered, so send some my way, if you will and thanks in advance.

I’ll update you all in a few days on how it went and where we are with the jobs and all that other stuff. Have a blessed Sunday!

Xoxo ~ Tamana

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Happy Birthday To Me!

Today I turn 35 (whoops, am I not supposed to give my age out?). Well, I just did and I don’t give a damn. I am 35 years wiser, more successful (or slowly getting there) and happier.

So, happy birthday to me! I am thankful for the few amazing people in my life and for everything the Lord has provided me with. I’m grateful for this blog and the people that bother to read the crap I write (kidding, most of it’s not crap). I am just thankful.

I made no plans and goals for the upcoming year; I never follow through with them anyway. I’m taking life a day at a time and enjoying the moments I have with my family.

My course is almost done and I’m looking forward to continuing my education further and starting to work. I’m just not sure which direction I want to take my education; meaning should I pursue nursing or go for paramedics. Not sure yet but I have a ton of prerequisites to complete before I move forward with either course and if course, I need to find a job first! This whole, single-income living isn’t working for me.

Anyway, enough of my chitter-chatter. Wish me happy birthday and have a drink for me tonight, for today is the beginning of the rest of my life!đź’‹đź’‹đź’‹

~Tamana

Nid’s 5th Birthday Letter

Happy Birthday, doll! May God bless you with all life’s joys and happiness. May you forever be loved and blessed. May you grow to become a beautiful person, inside and out. May you always know how much your mommy and daddy love you. God bless you, my darling. 

The past five years have gone by far to fast. Your daddy and I are amazed at how quickly you’re growing up and how independent you’re becoming. From the day we brought you home, you were the blessing in our home and lives and with every day that passes, we are reminded by the blessing you are. 

This year, you’ve become more independent than ever. You’re helping me in the kitchen with cooking and baking cakes (with the hope of licking the frosting off the spoons). You’ve helped me hang laundry and fold your own clothes. You’ve even encouraged me to read more, as your interest to visit the library has sparked an interest in me and so our weekly library visits have turned into a special time for both of us. 

You started French immersion school this year and have taken on the new language with such interest and pride. Your favourite song, bonjour les amie, is amazing to listen to, even though you sing it over and over again. You love counting in French and we’ve made a game out of it. It’s fantastic how quickly you’re picking it all up. We are so proud of you and your accomplishments.

Congratulations, my doll for achieving so much this past year. God bless you always. Mommy and daddy love you dearly! Happy 5th Birthday!

Quick Update Plus Diwali and Thanksgiving Pictures 

Monday was the last day of my clinical. It’s been an exhausting part of my studies but I’m finished. The next portion is less physically straining and allowing more interactions with the residents. 

During my community work; which began on Tuesday, I have been assisting staff with feeding, doing activities and walking with the residents. This is a very good chance to get to know the residents and learn their experiences. Although, it’s a much slower paced part of my education, I am enjoy it. 

I completely forgot to upload photos of thanksgiving and Diwali and so decided to include them in this post. Thanksgiving was fantastic and dinner turned into lunch due to a miscommunication between my husband and I. Nevertheless, lunch was enjoyed by all and we were so full afterwards, that everyone decided to nap right after. Here are some pictures of Thanksgiving lunch:

Lamb chops with pasta, scalloped potatoes and stuffing
My Thanksgiving dining table
French vanilla custard cake
Puff pastry fruit and chocolate tea snacks
Egg, spinach and cheese puffs for breakfast
Garlic pull-apart cheesy bread

As for Diwali, my darling husband surprised me and Nid by showing up earlier than expected. Nid and I were just getting dressed and beginning to light candles and diyas when he burst through the front door. I have to say I was overjoyed because I felt terrible that we were celebrating without him. 

Later that evening, when all of us were dressed and ready to pray, my brother joined us and stayed for the prayer and dinner. Nid completely adores my brother and was overwhelmed with excitement. Here are some of the pictures of our Diwali prayer and lighting of the diyas: 

Rangoli made with chalk and turmeric

The Last Day Of Junior Kindergarten 

Last Day of JK – June 29, 2017

Can you believe it; the school year is over. My (not so little) munchkin has already had her Junior Kindergarten graduation and Friday was her last day of school. Where did the year go? Why is it going so fast and why is she growing up so quickly? In September, she will be starting Senior Kindergarten at a new French immersion school. She’ll take a school bus to and from school and become even more independent than she is today. 

Graduation with Mrs. B & Mrs. V – June 23, 2017

My little baby is no longer a baby and that is the hardest part about being a mom; watching your child grow up. No one warned me about the growing up phase and how quickly she’ll become independent. I mean, I knew she would grow up eventually but I wasn’t prepared for how soon it would be. 

Graduation – June 23, 2017

As saddened as it is to see her become independent and not need her mommy as much, I am proud of the sweet little girl she is becoming. Yes, she has some issues here and there with her behaviour and not eating her meals but overall, she is a smart, respectful and polite girl and that makes me exceptionally proud to be her mom. 

Congratulations to all the little boys and girls graduating and moving into a higher grade and to all of the proud parents and teachers that have worked so hard all year to ensure these little ones succeed. Thank you to all the teachers, especially, Mrs. B and Mrs. V for all their compassion, love, efforts and care they given my child. Your efforts truly shine with everything she does. 

Happy 150th Birthday Canada 

 Happy Birthday to the country that has been my beautiful home for the past 30 years. Thank you for all the opportunities you’ve given me. Thank you for being a beautiful, safe and culturally diverse place to raise my family. I am truly a blessed and proud Canadian. 

Happy Canada Day and 4th of July to everyone north and south of the border. I hope you celebrate your nation by loving your neighbors, appreciating all the opportunities you’ve been given and count your blessings. Have lots of fun and celebrate.

Have a great long weekend! 

What Are We Leaving Our Children Behind To?

People encourage me to have another child. My parents, relatives, friends and even regulars at the restaurant tell me that I should have another child before Nid gets too old. I tell them I’m not ready and physiologically and financially cannot afford another child right now.

The fact of the matter is that I am horrified to have the one that I already have grow up in this world and what it’s becoming. Isis killing the Europeans. Americans killing Americans. A race fight. Honour killings. Pedophiles. Gang rapes. People overdosing on drugs that even experts can’t explain. The world is pretty much fucked and it’s just going to get worst.

It scares me shitless thinking my little Nid will one day walk this earth without her parents. How will she deal with everything this world is turning into? How will she cope with all of this? Especially, when her own parents are having a hell of a time handling everything happening in the world.

Sometimes I turn on the news first thing in the morning and nearly end up crying. It’s devastating seeing what human beings are doing to each other and to our planet. How can I imagine another child in this world? I mean, tough luck for Nidhi, she was a golden child so she’s here without a choice of her’s or mine. And I will do everything in my power to leave her in a place where she is strong, brave and capable of handling anything that comes her way. But to intentionally bring another child into this world knowing everything that is happening seems a bit stupid. 

On the flip side, I think God forbid something were to happen to Dev and I, at least Nid would have a sibling. She would need a sibling and companion who knew exactly what she was going through. 

But will they actually be there for each other? I mean, look at me and my brother, we haven’t spoken in nearly 10 years and quite frankly, I’m happy it’s that way. So when I think about that relationship, I figure its best not to have a sibling at all. But that’s my own drama that we’ll keep out of this post for the sake of sanity.

The important matter is that if I bring another child into this world knowing that I haven’t done anything to better it would be a sin and lack of compassion for this world and my children. So, I’ve decided to pay it forward. As most of you know, I can be an incredibly selfish person but equally caring and loving. I am taking a new step in my life to help others and give a little back to this sometimes bitter world. 

Along with changing my career completely so I may help people (details to come), I am also going to be taking Nid with me to help clean our community on afternoon walks on the weekends. Aside from that, I will begin collecting clothes, toys, food from my own home to donate to shelters for youth. I think our youth need the most support right now because after we leave, it will be them that walk this earth and I hope with my efforts, I can change someone’s life for the betterment of their future and cause them to do a little good. 

I know, it’s not a lot but every effort helps and will better our world a bit at a time. I hope my new outlook to better this world for my child, will spark a flame inside of you to also do a little for the betterment of your children and the world they’ll live in.