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Sprained Ankle: A Sign I Need To Move More

Last week I wrote about my 10K steps initiative to a healthier lifestyle. I managed to follow through on that until Saturday afternoon. I took Ni for a walk through Bluffer’s Park and ended up spraining my ankle and heel. Yay me! NOT!!!!

But that just goes to show that because I have been inactive for so long my body was very out of shape; more than I anticipated. Although, I’ve been on best rest these pay couple of days, I am not letting the sprain discourage me. As soon as my ankle and heel heal again, I will be up and about on my lunch-time walks. I just need to get off my ass first.

I also got on a scale yesterday. I’ve managed to gain 6 lbs. and almost passed out when I saw that. 6 lbs. doesn’t seem like a lot but ask a person that has been trying to lose weight how hard it is to take of 6 lbs. and you’ll understand why I almost collapsed. I couldn’t believe it. I could. Because I’ve been terribly bad with chocolate and junk food but seriously 6 friggin pounds? Wtf????

I need to get serious. I’m turning into a lazy fuck and I really want to fit into that dress (hopefully before this summer is over). I’m going to seriously begin taking a look at my food choices and get off my ass more often. I have to! I need to! I will!!!!

Woman Issues: Mirena IUD

As you all know, I gave birth to my little angel last October. My pregnancy was completely a surprise to me and D. We didn’t plan for it and quite frankly, weren’t ready for it either. But the Almighty does mysterious things and we were blessed with a health, beautiful baby girl.

During my pregnancy, I barely gained any weight (12lbs to be exact). But I was over weight to start with. And after giving birth, I lost a total of 24 lbs within weeks.

At my first appointment with my gynecologist since giving birth, my gyno recommended birth-control to prevent any other surprise pregnancies. She mentioned that after giving birth, my body had enough hormones actively present to easily get pregnant again and if I didn’t want to, them I should take precautions to prevent it. We discussed many methods of contraceptives and I told her I’d tried the birth control pills in the past and couldn’t commit to taking a pill at the same time every day. She discussed IUDs with me. A one time insertion that lasts for 5 years and less flow during aunt Mary’s visit each month? How could I have rejected. So two weeks later, I had Mirena inserted and was one my way to a carefree life without the worry of getting pregnant again.

But then things changed. I changed. My body changed. My emotions changed. One minute I was happy, the next crying or angry. So many sleepless nights that I’ve given up on counting anymore. Horribly increased appetite. Like I was eating for two again. If all that wasn’t bad enough, I gained weight and couldn’t she’s a pound for the life of me.

I kept telling my physician that something was terribly wrong with me and after enough pressure from me, he agreed to give me a full physical exam; X-rays, ultrasounds, blood tests and all. He laughed when I anxiously asked him the results at my follow up visit and told me I was a boring case of crazy. He said all my reports were fantastic and nothing was wrong with me. But I objected and explained how I was feeling and physically and emotionally going through. His next reply struck me hard, “I think you’re depressed and we should try a round of antidepressants and see how you feel in a few weeks”. antidepressants? What? I wasn’t depressed and sure as hell didn’t need any medicating to calm be down and bring me back to normalcy. What I needed was to know what was wrong with me.

I stormed out of his office quite upset and as I was walking out the door it struck me, the IUD! Could it be the IUD doing all of this to me? I ran back into his room and asked him. But again he shattered my hopes of finding reasoning to my craziness. He said he didn’t know much about it but didn’t think it was possible. He told me to speak to my gynecologist and consult her. Gee thanks doc, you’re so friggin helpful. Not!

Anyway, I went home and did research online and after confirming my suspicion, I called my gyno’s office and asked for an immediate appointment.

Last Friday I had the IUD removed by my gyno. She told me everything I was going through was due to the IUD and that after having it removed it would take about 3-4 weeks for the hormones to leave my body and I should go back to normal. She told me that it was very rare to be experiencing such symptoms and she only had one other patient ever have similar results. Sigh! So, far all the craziness, mood-swings, depression, anxiety and 30 lbs gained, I finally figured out what was wrong with me. I’m starting up my weight-loss regime again and have been put on Metformin to help. I’ll keep you updated on my progress. Wish me luck. Apparently, it takes a while for your body to fully recover from Mirena.

2011 So Far…

2011? Dear heaven!

This was supposed to be the year for me to make drastic changes in my health, my weight, my career, my financial status.   But nothing seems to be going the way I had planned or thought it would.

My health seems to be deteriorating, my weight loss has turned in to weight-gain, my career is status quo but my financial situation has gone to hell worst than last year.

I’m coughing much more.   I’m constantly out of breath.  I’m always tired and so many parts of my body hurt.   I feel as if I’ve aged 20 years in the past month or so.

I was losing weight last year at a steady pace.  But now it seems as though I’ve gained back all 20 lbs that I managed to lose last year.  I know it’s because I’m not following my routine the way I was.  But even the determination I had last year has gone away.

My finances seem to be putting me more and more into debt without even the slightest hint of getting better any time soon.  My bed broke late last year so I needed to buy a new mattress. That put me in some debt.   Then I lost $2000 and ended up having to borrow money from a family friend to pay my first and last for the new apartment.   If that wasn’t enough, my car’s engine just blew a week ago and is costing me $3000 to either replace or $2000 to fix.  That will put me in more debt because clearly I don’t have any money saved for a rainy day.

I’ve tried looking for part-time work.  However, no one wants to hire you if you’re already working full-time or days.

2011 is not going as planned and it doesn’t seem to be getting better.

However, I must say, I am grateful for having love in my life right now.   Through all this misery and hell, I’ve had a couple of good friends, my mom and my sweetheart keeping me sane.  All four of them have kept me pushing through and urging me to get through it.

LM’s my vent destination.  He’s always there (well not physically) but via text or bbm.   ML’s my go-to person for support and crisis.  My mom’s the one promising things will get better and to have faith.   And my darling D, he’s the one wiping my tears and keeping me smiling so there aren’t any tears to wipe at all.   And most importantly, I have “HIM” up there, watching over me and guiding me through this.

I’ve got my army behind me. 2011 might not be going that well for me.  But I’ve got my army of support.  I’ll find the light at the end of the tunnel.  So bring on whatever else there is left to bring on!

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Starting Point

I was never skinny. I always had meat on my body and even though my brother and dad joked about me being fat, I really didn’t mind my weight. My teenage years and during my early 20’s, I maintained a weight of 135-140 lbs. However, a few years ago my domestic issues evolved and I let myself go. I stopped caring about the way I looked or how I felt about myself. I was so focused on how other people made me feel and all the issues that occurred around me, that I didn’t realize I had gained 105 lbs.

Today I weigh 268 lbs. I hate myself for letting my body become what it has. I hate the way I look. I don’t feel confident!

But I need to. I can’t continue feeling or looking the way I do. I sometimes get the feeling that my low self-esteem is noticed by people. I want to change how I feel about myself. I want to change what I see when I look in the mirror. I don’t care what other people say about me or think about me. But I want to become the confident person I used to be.

People I work with and daily associate with have told me that writing down everything they eat, has helped them control their daily food intake. It’s also helped them control the quantity of food and calories they eat.

So, I’ve decided to start writing down my daily food intake. I’m not going to know exactly how many calories each item has, however, I will definitely try to find out. This part of my blog is more for me than anyone else. I want to assess my daily intake and activities. Hopefully, in a few weeks/months I’ll be able to get an idea of the things I need to change.

Because I want to change the way I look and feel, I am setting a goal for myself. I’m giving myself 12 months to lose 100 lbs. That averages out to about 8.3 lbs a month. I know that’s a little hard to do but it’s something I’d like to do. Here are a few other changes I’ve made:

  1. Cut out salt
  2. Cut out soda
  3. Drink at least 2-3 bottles of water a day
  4. Exercise or walk for at least 15 minutes a day
  5. Eat breakfast

Duration: 12 months (1 year)
Target: 160 lbs. – 170 lbs.

DAY 1:

Today’s daily intake: (Oh keep in mind, these daily posts will be updated multiple times throughout the day)

Early morning: 2 glasses 100% pure grapefruit juice
  2 slices whole-grain bread with cream cheese
Breakfast: Cup of yogurt with all-bran buds
Large cup of coffee (2 milks, 2 sugars)
Mid-morning: Large cup of honey, lemon, ginseng green tea – Walked up 1 flight of stairs
Michelina’s Fettuccine Alfredo (390 calories) – Walked for 15-20 minutes
Large cup of honey, lemon, ginseng green tea – Walked up 1 flight of stairs
Mid-Afternoon: Small red apple
Dinner: Rice & Lentils
Snack: Bowl of green grapes
Dessert: Lime/vanilla popsicle