Day 2 of the Daily Post Challenge

It’s only day 2 of the Daily Post Challenge that WordPress has introduced many of us bloggers to and already I find myself stuck and struggling to find a topic to write about. I could write about my New Year’s resolutions. But seriously isn’t that what more than half the world is talking and writing about? You’ll just find another post on ZiddiTamana talking about the all the same stuff everyone else is hoping to accomplish in 2011. Where’s the fun in that?

I could also write a little more about what’s going on with my love; except everything is pretty steady now and there is nothing going on with it. I mean, everything is the same. No new developments to report. Likewise, family drama is on the down-low as well. It’s weird how everything just calms right down all at once and then goes crazy all at once. If only we could deal with one obstacle at a time life would be a little easier to deal with.

Besides that the only hot topic I could discuss is my new home. I love it! Except the minute Dev leaves I’m all lonely and bored. Plus, the varnish and paint smell is still trying to kill me slowly. I’ve tried lighting incense and spraying air fresheners but nothing is really working. So, I keep waking up having an asthma attack and choking. I’ve left the windows open for most of the day to air out the place. However, with the minus 8 temperature outside it’s hard not to freeze to death in the process.

Well, that’s all folks. I can’t think of anything else that I can entertain you with. I’m heading off to bed. I might have to do some research over the next few days to find interesting enough topics to discuss. Plinky’s daily prompt doesn’t always inspire me enough to write. Maybe I’ll see what my friends are talking about on their blogs and find some inspiration there.

Until then, good reading and good night!

Looking Back at 2010

2010 was quite an eventful year for me.

Career changes occurred right at the beginning of the year. I was promoted from CSR to Product Specialist. I soon became the only person on our support team to know the product in and out. I have since turned into a Senior Product Specialist without officially gaining the title. I am also a trainer for internal and external representatives and clients. I’ve been given the title by colleagues as “Jill of all Trades” and they say I’m the go-to person for our product. That’s quite an accomplishment!

My personal accomplishment would be that after 7-8 years, I finally started to care about my body and appearance. I have lost 18 lbs. since October 1st and plan on dropping another 20-25 lbs by the end of March. With the weight-loss I’ve started gaining my self-confidence and self-esteem again. For me that is a huge accomplishment.

In my relationships I’ve gained and lost love this year. I’ve lost a couple of dear friends due to circumstances or misunderstandings. I broke up with my boyfriend after 4 years, who put me through absolute hell during our break up and over the past year or so. But has since started to become my best friend. (Some relationships are better left at friendship then becoming more)

I’ve also met someone new, who puts a huge smile on my heart and face. He makes me all bubbly and shy. I feel happy knowing he’s around. He’s slightly a difficult person to deal with at times, but the challenge makes it so much more intriguing.

My blog has been one of my greatest accomplishments. I know I don’t get hundreds of thousands of visitors daily and seldom do my readers comment or respond to my posts. However, the few regulars that do comment and read my blog religiously have made this journey more worthwhile. To gain a few regulars rather than a million one-timers is definitely an accomplishment.

All-in-all, 2010 has been a good the year for me. Career growth, personal accomplishments, new and restored relationships and regular readers. Those are quite the accomplishments.

But I’m happy to be looking ahead to 2011. Although, last year was good to me, there are many changes I still need to make and many things I want to accomplish this year.

Here’s to a brighter, better year ahead!

Happy New Year 2011

Wishing each of you a prosperous New Year! Remember to Live, Love and Laugh!

Thank you for all the support, love and feedback over the past year.

I will be spending my New Year’s Eve with my one and only sweetheart in our new home (hopefully, if he gets off work early).

Do let me know how you’re spending yours. I look forward to hearing from you in the New Year!

Love always…

~Tamana~

I’m Posting Every Day in 2011!

I’ve decided I want to blog more. Rather than just thinking about doing it, I’m starting right now. I will be posting on this blog once a day for all of 2011.

I know it won’t be easy, but it might be fun, inspiring, awesome and wonderful. Therefore I’m promising to make use of The DailyPost, and the community of other bloggers with similar goals, to help me along the way, including asking for help when I need it and encouraging others when I can.

If you already read my blog, I hope you’ll encourage me with comments and likes, and good will along the way.

For twitterers – every post will go out to twitter for your convenience. Check out @zidditamana – and follow.

Thanks,

~Tamana

First Step to a New Beginning

I know I recently did a post about the New Year that is upon us and my new beginnings. But I just moved into my new apartment yesterday. I’m not completely set up yet and life still seems like a havoc. There are boxes, garbage bags, clothes and dishes all over the place. Even Jack and Bella haven’t been brought here yet. But my new life has begun.

I spent last night by myself. No boyfriend, no roommate, no cats, no one; just me, myself and I. At first it kind of sucked. I wished Dev had stayed. But finally as I was about to doze off, I looked around me and felt my heart smile. I feel at home now. My last apartment felt so empty, so cold and more like a dorm room or hotel. Although, I have a lot of work cut out for me to get this apartment all set up, it still feels like home.

It’s small and cosy. It stinks of varnish and paint but feels right. I don’t know how I’m going to set everything up or where what will go. All I know is this little one bedroom place is all mine. Well, mine and Bella and Jack’s (until of course the obvious happens but that’s a different post in itself). 🙂 I love it!

I’m hoping though, this new home brings with it even better opportunities and events as the old one did. The old one brought me a new laptop within days of moving in. I then got Bella. She is a blessing that I am so thankful for day after day. Then I got the Bull aka my Jeep. My Jeep opened up so many career opportunities for me. I got a great job at my current employer that I’m so thankful to have considering the economic situation nowadays. Then I got Jack, who is a darling. I won’t forget to mention all the people who came in my life after moving into that place, all the fun I had there or all the luck it brought with it. I lost love and then gained it from someone else. I moved away from my family but gained a few good friends, hopefully for life. That house was good for me.

Smiling Memories: so many cherished. But now I start anew.

It’s Never Enough

You give and you give until you cannot give no more. You love and you love until you cannot love no more. You break all your limits. You tear down all the boundaries. You go out of your way to make sure every expectation is fulfilled. All you ask for in return is a smile, maybe a gesture of appreciation and love; even a “thank you” or acknowledgment would do. Instead you’re told that you are a terrible person because you missed one single detail. Or they don’t even bother to say anything at all. Or they don’t even bother to respond to you.

So you sit there reminisce and wonder why isn’t it ever enough?

You can’t tell anyone what you’re feeling because they probably won’t understand. All you can do is cry because none of it makes sense to you anymore. Everything you do seems to never be enough. There is always some disappointment. They are never satisfied with everything else you do. All they can emphasize their thoughts and disappointments on are the things you didn’t do.

Then there are the people who you have done everything you can do for them that just replace you when they think they’ve found someone better. They’re inconsiderate of your feelings and sometimes don’t even show you common courtesy. Because they’re alone here, you’ve tried to be their best friend, you’ve tried to be their family. You’ve tried your best to go above and beyond for them so they never felt alone or the emptiness of not having their family near-by.

There are also those people who you just love and love so much. You don’t know why you love them. You don’t know if it’s right or wrong. You still love them even though they don’t say a single word to you. You love them even though they sometimes say hurtful things. Then you go out of your way to make sure they feel loved, cared for and part of your family. You do for them everything and anything they want. You do those things for them that no one has ever done.

Yet, none of it is ever enough. One calls you a terrible person. The other doesn’t even consider you worthy enough to greet you. The next still can’t decide whether they love you or not.

What else do you have to do to make sure it’s enough? When will it ever be enough? When will your love be reciprocated? When will someone finally say thanks? When?

Never.

It will never be enough.

Plinky: Mom Deserves More Credit

My Mom definitely deserves more credit then she gets. She takes care of the house, the family, the grand children and everyone’s needs and requirements. She truly is super-woman!

While my father has spent most of his life at work, my mother has spent her life at home taking care of children. She made sure we had arts and crafts in our lives, dance and music, education and entertainment. She made sure we understood and practiced our religion and culture; while still adapting to the new country’s cultures we were in. She made sure we had a friend in the form of a parent, who we could confide in and rely on. She made sure she could fulfill all of our hopes and dreams to the best our financial circumstances would allow.

And now as she has aged and it is our time to take care of her and make sure she doesn’t go a single day in despair; I think we take it for granted all that she has done. She was always there and remains ’till this day. But being children, we sometimes forget to give our parents as much credit as they deserve.